I have been trying and trying to write every day but image mapping has made me resent creating content because it keeps going wrong. I have finally accepted I am not going to be a html code writing whiz (in the near future at least) so I decided to write to let you guys know I’m very much alive and still focused on creating content.
There’s one thing you need to know about me: I am a perfectionist. With everything. I won’t rest until something is perfect and done to the best of my abilities. I have to be happy with the results to share them with someone. This applies to absolutely everything, not just my blog; I clean the house until it’s perfect, I only make dinners that are perfect to the last notch; when I play with Alaska, my phone goes in another room and I will do the whole deal – imitating voices, rolling on the floor with her or whatever else the game requires. I strive for perfection.
It’s a love hate relationship. I love doing things perfectly and right. But when I don’t, I find it hard to just brush it off and leave it. I sometimes can’t sleep because something isn’t ‘done’ up to my standards.
So, I’m trying so so hard to don’t let it get to me. To tell myself that I can’t do everything perfectly. To tell myself that imperfections are okay.
As well as my perfectionism, I love organizing and planning things. I’m trying to be more open to changes because life is full of surprises and you can’t plan everything. This post is the start of that, I have another half-written fashion post that I have been working on for about 3 weeks and today, I just fobbed it off. I started writing this from the heart and without any plan on what to write. I think its gone quite well so far.
It’s okay to not be perfect. It’s okay to have a break. It’s okay to be yourself. I hope you’re ready for shorter, snappier and better posts because I’m turning a new leaf. I’m proud to be imperfect.
Hope you enjoyed this post,